I Have A Strong Dislike For People

Hey. I’ve talked about how I coach baseball before, right? Well, last night was our first playoff game. Overall it was a pretty good game, even though we ended up losing by one, but that’s not the point. During the game, one of the parents from the other team said something about one of the kids on my team. The asshole said something along the lines of, “this kid shouldn’t be playing with eight-year-olds” or something like that. Now, that isn’t what pissed me off, but it annoyed me a bit, since the minor league goes up to age 12 and the kid in question, who I will refer to as M, is barely considered a ten-year-old this season (had he been born a month later than he was, he would’ve actually been considered a nine-year-old this season). However, I could see why someone might think that. M is a pretty big kid, and a wicked strong player.

Anyway, I decided to go over there and just tell the parent that, hey, M actually just turned ten, there’s no reason why he shouldn’t be playing with eight-year-olds. I figured the parent had made that comment because he was worried about his kid playing against M, maybe worried that his kid might get hurt because M’s such a good (and powerful) player, and I actually just wanted to set the record straight so he wouldn’t have to worry about it. That’s the only reason I went over there at all. So, I go over there and make a couple comments about how this is a really good game, and how I feel bad for some of the pitchers because a lot of perfect strikes were being called balls by the umpire. Small talk, you know? I was talking with a couple of the parents for a minute about how it could be worse, though, and the umpire could be favoring one team over the other, so at least he’s calling balls and strikes the same for each team, even if he is saying the strikes are balls.

After a minute or two of this, I was like, “Oh, and whoever said M shouldn’t be playing with eight-year-olds, he actually just turned ten about a month ago, so he’s well within his age range.” One of the parents pretty much flips out and is like, “What are you doing, coming over here just to start something?” I’m kinda taken aback at this point. Like, seriously, I wasn’t nasty about it at all, and just wanted to correct them to make them feel better. I said, “I’m not trying to cause trouble or anything, I just wanted to say that there’s no reason why M shouldn’t be playing with eight-year-olds,” but the asshole just kept going. He was like, “I’m not gonna listen to some smart-ass teenager who doesn’t know how to respect adults. Why don’t you just go back to your own side, little girl?” Ugh, even thinking about it right now is pissing me off all over again!

At this point, I was really starting to get pissed off. I just said, “Respect is earned, and you’re not acting like an adult right now,” which, okay, maybe wasn’t the best way to try and keep the peace, but hey, I’ve never been one to just stand there while people insult me. I was so freaking pissed at this point. Then- get this!- he yells across the field, “Hey Tigers, you wanna come get your little girl and bring her back to your side?!” and one of the coaches from the other team hears and comes over. He says to me, “Hey, come on, just leave them alone,” which I don’t blame him for, because he only heard the asshole, but still. It was annoying that he was so quick to blame me, because I’ve been involved with this baseball league for over a decade, and I’m umpired a lot of his games, so I know he knows I’m not a bad kid or a troublemaker or anything, but whatever. At that point, I just walked back over to the other side and tried to keep my mouth shut, because it just wasn’t worth it.

I freaking hate people who think they’re better than you just because they’re older. That’s bullshit. Ugh. See? This is why I don’t like people! Everyone always thinks I’m kidding when I say, “I just have a strong dislike for people in general,” but I’m being completely honest. People in general just piss me off.

If there’s one thing I absolutely cannot stand, it’s when people have that “holier than thou” attitude. Ugh. Seriously. I just… ugh!

Well, that’s it for now. Hopefully I’ll keep posting. Bye!

-Sam

P.S. As always, the links to the original pages can be found by clicking the images.

Just To Clarify….

Hey. I know my last post may have seemed full of hatred toward my sister; however, that is not the case. While, yes, I was super pissed at her for acting the way she did and getting me into a shitload of trouble, I love her more than life itself. She’s my little sister and I would give my life for her in a heartbeat. She’s just a fucking asshole at times (but aren’t we all?).

Ugh. I’ve been sick literally this entire fucking month! I missed every single school day from Friday, October 30, through and including the entire next week. My first day back was last Monday. And, top it off, I’m fucking sick again! My throat is fucking killing me, and MY ENTIRE FUCKING BODY HURTS!! I can’t deal with this! Ugh!

-Sam

My Annoying, Manipulative, Conniving Little Sister

Hey. I’m back, hopefully for good this time. I’ve been neglecting this for well over a year now, and I’ve come to realize just how soothing it really is to post all of my shit here. God, where do I even start…?

Well, I suppose I’ll start with right now. My fucking sister, Amanda. She’s nine now. I’ve never been anywhere near as fucking pissed off at her as I am at this moment and have been recently. My mom brought my two brothers to football practice, where my dad already was, so me and Amanda were gonna stay home alone. She was to do her homework and I was to do mine. Okay, sure. Fair enough. Right?

Yeah, well, literally the second my mom closes the front door, Amanda starts being bitchy. Her new ploy to get me in trouble is to pretty much make up a whole fucking argument with me in her head, where she’s actually yelling at me in real life but I’m still SILENTLY SITTING IN THE FUCKING RECLINER WHILE TYPING MY HOMEWORK. Remember, my mom hasn’t even been out of the house for a fucking minute yet. So I turn to look at her and say simply, “Do your homework.” I’m actually quite proud of myself for keeping myself so calm.

Anyways, she does that fucking little pretend gasp thing that you really only see the shallow, bitchy girl in all those stupid Disney movies do. “That’s it, I’M telling MOM!” So my sister seriously fucking sprints to the front door, rips it open, and runs out after my mom (who isn’t even in her fucking car yet!!), screaming how I’m already yelling at her and telling her to shut up.

Excuse me?!

Naturally, my mom believes the little conniving nine-year-old over her eldest, seventeen-year-old daughter who was left in charge and hadn’t moved an inch since she walked out the door. I hear her yell my name – “Samantha Rose Murphy, get out here right now!” – and I go over to the door just in time to get yelled at about how I better not give Amanda any crap and to just leave her alone. After about five or ten “OKAY, Mom!”s, my sister and I are back inside again and my mom gets in her car and drives away.

I tell Amanda, “Okay, you heard Mom, start getting that homework done.” What does she say to me in return, you ask? Why, a fierce “shut up!” of course. Taking a deep breath to try and keep my cool (which is definitely starting to slip by now), I say to her something along the lines of, enough with the attitude, I’m the babysitter, I’m in charge, just do your homework so I can leave you alone. “Don’t make me call Mom!” she threatens, and I’m almost unable to stop myself from laughing, but luckily I hold it in, telling her to go ahead, try it, before turning back to my computer.

She proceeds to search the house for the next five minutes, looking for one of our house phones. When she finds it, she calls my mom’s cell. The first time, she leaves a message, and is (no joke) in the middle of telling the answering machine how I screamed at her to shut up and how I’m just being a big jerk to her. I call over very, very calmly and tell her to stop making up stories. She SCREAMS at me “SHUT UP!!!!” while still talking to the answering machine and starts screaming/crying. You know, that screeching kids do when they’re trying to fake sob? Yeah, that.

She then redials my mom’s number. This time, my mom picks up. Amanda goes straight into her act, telling my mom, “Mooooooommmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyy, Sammi’s being a big jerk! She’s yelling at me and calling me names and telling me to shut up!”

Which, might I remind you, is a total, 100% lie. Seriously. I am NOT making this up. Honestly? I wish I were….

My mom tells her to “put your sister on the phone right now!” Already having another handheld right next to me, I press talk and tell Amanda to hang up since I’m on with the other phone. Naturally, she yells “NO!” and of course my mom doesn’t care. She goes right into shouting at me to take my stuff and get into my room and don’t interact with Amanda and just leave her alone. I will admit that I reached my limit during this “conversation” (more like sentencing!) and snapped. I yelled at my mom over the phone, “She’s lying! Really, Mom, I’ve literally done nothing except tell her to do her homework and not be a little brat to me!”

My mom ends up screaming back at me, “I DON’T CARE, JUST GET INTO YOUR ROOM, AND IF I GET ANOTHER CALL I’M COMING BACK TO GET HER AND THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY!!!” Of course, we exchange more than just that summarization, but you get the point. I hang up and proceed to my room where I very gently close the door so I don’t accidentally slam it in my anger.

Anyways, about ten, fifteen minutes later, my mom bangs on my door. I’m super confused and ask her “why are you here, you said you weren’t gonna get her unless there was another problem?” to which she responds “maybe just think about it!” Very meanly, might I add. She then proceeds to yell in my face (literally – her toes were touching mine) to make sure I shower, do the dishes, and send my homework to her (because God forbid I actually send it to just my teacher, right? Nooooooo, cuz I would totally be lying about that unless she fucking sees it which is stupid because she’s so fucking technologically inept I get in trouble because she doesn’t know how to fucking open and view my work anyways!!). She then wordlessly turns and slams the front door on her way out, refusing to acknowledge me asking “what the hell just happened?!?!” Of course, I don’t ask like that since I don’t swear at all in front of her, but still.

And so is the story of my life. I wish I could say this is a rare, even isolated occurrence, but, alas, it is not. Not even close. I have to deal with this shit every single day! Sometimes I’m actually stumped how I haven’t literally exploded and how my guts don’t cover the walls of my house yet.

I’ll try to start doing the whole blog thing regularly again. Like, I said, I miss you guys. Later.

-Sam

P.S. Oh yeah, and on top of everything else, I’ve been sick since early Friday morning. Yeah, like I even have the fucking energy to be a fucking asshole to you, Amanda….

I. Freaking. Hate. Not. Being. Able. To. Breathe!!

Hey. Well, in case you couldn’t guess from the title, I’m still somewhat sick. My mom doesn’t believe it’s asthma, though, and if it is, not totally. She thinks its more nasal congestion. Anyways, either way, I’m still stuck not being able to breath right. So, yeah, I’m screwed for now- I can’t do anything normally. Sorry for the short post, but I want to go play a game on Facebook. Bye!

-Sam

I Hate Not Having Time To Do Fun Stuff

Hey. UGH! I’m not going to repeat the title, so go look at it again if you don’t remember. I really hate it. Especially since I haven’t updated Running in two weeks, because I haven’t had enough freaking time! And I LOVE where it’s going to go, so I’m really motivated to update so it can get there! But nooooooo, of course life can’t give me time. Between midterms, and homework, and my mom deciding that she’s going to really crack down on making me clean my room, I’ve had, like, no time to type! I HATE it 😦 Alright, I have to go finish homework. Sorry for the short post. Bye!

-Sam

I Hate It When I Can’t Think Of A Name For My Story!

Hey. Ugh! Last night, watching Wicked, I got this great idea for a story, and I want to make the cover, but I can’t because I CAN’T COME UP WITH A FREAKING TITLE FOR IT!!! It’s so freaking annoying! And this has almost never happened before, and when it has, I’m normally able to come up with a name within the hour, nevermind a day! Alright, now that I’ve got that rant off my chest, I think I’m done for now. I might have some more deep stuff for you later, but right now, I’m too irritated at not being able to come up with a title to spew anything nice and deep, so that’ll have to wait. Sorry for the short post, especially after I said I’d try to get into the habit of longer posts, but I’m not in the mood to talk right now. Like I said, I just needed to get this off my chest (and keep my posting streak 🙂 ). Bye!

-Sam

I Hate Quarter Projects!

Hey. Okay, I MOSTLY hate quarter projects. I hate the stress of them. I normally like how I get to write as much as I want, except for the times when the final essay is only two pages (I’m looking at you, first quarter US History I Honors project!). My outline for Dos’ class (again, that’s history if you haven’t caught on by now or if you’re new 🙂 ) is due after vacation, and I have to read, like, up to six books. I know, I know, once I get to college, it’ll be much harder, blah blah blah, but I’m only in high school. And while I do like the extra challenge, I don’t exactly fly through books that don’t hold my attention. Sure, I can read a Harry Potter book in an hour, but a five hundred page book on the Jacksonian Era? Forget it! Ugh, it just sounds so boring. I’ve barely started, so I can’t really say much about any of the three books I’ve chosen to start off with (if I need more information I’ll go on to the other three), but I don’t have very high expectations. I think that writing the essay itself will be fairly fun, but I have to get through the books first. Meh. Alright, that’s it for now. I gotta go read some of those books. Wish me luck! Bye!

-Sam

Books I Want To Read In 2014

Hey. So, I love reading. It is the best. I am going to choose 12 books to read (1 for each month) in 2014, and tell them to you, and tell you why I chose them. Mostly, I’ve just been meaning to read them, but still. Anyways, here are the books, in no particular order (don’t worry about spoilers- one, I haven’t even read the books, so how could I spoil, and two, I’m not even including a summary, so, like I said, don’t worry).

1. I Am The Messenger by Markus Zusak

Well, I want to read this one for a few reasons. First, it’s written by Markus Zusak, who wrote The Book Thief, which was phenomenal. The best book I have ever read, with one of the worst endings I have ever read, seconded only to Allegiant by Veronica Roth. Second, It seems like a good book, period. It caught my eye with the author, and the description made me want to read more.

2. The 5th Wave by Rick Yancey

This one looks pretty interesting. I absolutely LOVE sci-fi, and this is that genre, so it caught my eye, along with the description. I found it on Barnes and Noble’s The Best New Books Of 2013 For Teens. It is intriguing also because the description is so mysterious- it leaves a lot to be uncovered in the story, and I want to know more.

3. If I Stay by Gayle Forman

This one I have been wanting to read since the 5th grade. It sounds really, really good, and everywhere I look says it’s extraordinarily written and a masterpiece (so I changed the words a little, but they still embody the basic ideas 🙂 ). It sounds amazing.

4. Stranger In A Strange Land by Robert A. Heinlein

Okay, so I kind of cheated with this one a little. I’ve already started this one several times, but for some reason (although it’s an awesome book), I never seem to finish it (or even get more than 3/4 of the way through, for that matter). I don’t know why, but I am determined to find out what happens. Oh, and by the way, it took me a few minutes of scrolling to find this exact cover, the one to the book that I have. Apparently the “Original, Uncut” version has a unique cover. Who knew?

5. Angels And Demons by Dan Brown

I’ve been wanting to read this one for a while. It’s the first book in The DaVinci Code, and this cover is the original. Everyone’s been talking about it for as long as I can remember, and I’ve been meaning to read it for as long as I can remember, but I’ve just never gotten around to it.

6. Steelheart by Brandon Sanderson

Okay, I’ll admit it- I just looked at this one because of the cover at first. But I picked it because of what it sounded like. Fast-paced and full of action, which I love. Plus, it’s sci-fi. Well, we all know I’m a sucker for sci-fi 🙂

7. Asylum by Madeleine Roux

This one was also on Barnes and Noble’s The Best New Books Of 2013 For Teens. I do like horror (I saw The Conjuring, Insidious, and Insidious Chapter 2), so that’s why this one’s cover caught my eye. I looked into it, and it seemed pretty interesting, so I decided to pledge to read it in 2014.

8. In The After by Demitria Lunetta

I found this book under of Amazon’s Best Books Of The Year 2013: Teen & Young Adult. The title and the cover prompted me to further investigate this seemingly-interesting book. I really want to read it, for a few reasons. One, it leaves a lot to be answered. Two, it just seems interesting, and it makes me want to buy it right now and sit down and read it. But I’ll wait until 2014. Or at least until after Christmas, to see if I get any of these books (which I probably won’t, but you never know).

9. Dead To You by Lisa McMann

This one I found under Barnes and Noble’s Must-Reads For Teens. It seems very, very interesting, and I want to take a ride to the book store and pick it up right now. It wouldn’t be a problem except for one, I’m supposed to be doing homework, and two, I’m in my jammies….

10. Legend by Marie Lu

I’ve been meaning to read this for a couple months. It looks pretty interesting. I like mystery and suspense (as long as I can keep reading- have I ever mentioned that I HATE waiting and patience?!). It seems to be a mix of sci-fi and suspense, which is usually a good combination.

11. Parasite by Mira Grant

This sounds like an amazing idea for a book, and it’s sci-fi! I found it on Bookish’s The Best Sci-fi And Fantasy Books Of 2013 (yes, I’ve been Google-ing “the best teen sci-fi books of 2013” if you can’t tell 🙂 ). I can’t wait to see if the parasites- oh, wait, I promised no spoilers, not even summaries. Sorry!

12. The Host by Stephenie Meyer

I’ve been hearing about this for a couple of years now, and it sounds pretty good, and I want to see the movie, but I want to read the book first. I’ve been meaning to, but haven’t gotten around to it. I read Twilight (Taylor Lautner is wayyyy hotter than Robert Pattinson, and Jacob is way better than Edward for Bella, too, but don’t get me started), and I like Stephenie Meyer, so that should be a good read.

Wow, this was a REALLY long post. It took me around 2 hours to complete. Of course, I had to wrack my brains to try and remember the books I really wanted to read. You may ask, Sam, if you love reading so much, then why don’t you remember this stuff? The answer is, ADHD. I’m disorganized, which goes along with the ADHD, plus my brain works in different ways than normal people’s do (for that matter, it works different that normal ADHD people’s do! Doctors always call me an enigma!). I can store a lot of information in my mind, and even though it takes awhile to pull it back out, I can do it. Anyway, enough with this post. You’ve seen enough. Bye!

-Sam

Grey’s Anatomy

Hey. So, I love Grey’s Anatomy. It’s soooo awesome, but the hooks have me ripping my hair out. I guess they’re good, but they’re horrible for me because I HATE WAITING!!! And now I have to wait until Thursday to find out if the baby dies, or if Arizona is found out! ARGH!! I REALLY hate waiting. I mean, I’ve read good books with great hooks, but I can’t really think of any that had me this worked up before. And I love reading! So, as you can tell, I’m FREAKING OUT, and I will be until I see the next episode. I HATE the producers for this hook! Oh my God!! I can’t wait until Thursday! I wish I had a time machine so I could see it!! HURRY UP THURSDAY!!!! And on that note, I’ll end the post. Bye!

-Sam

Hate #4: Slow Computers

Hey. So, my next hate is ~drumroll~ slow computers. Yuck. They screw everything up, especially if you’re playing a game. Like The Sims 3, for instance. I try to play it, but my stupid laptop is so slow that my Sims take like 1 step every 5 seconds! It’s so annoying! Or when you’re trying to scroll down to read something, and you scroll once. When it freezes, you scroll like a million times in annoyance and anger and by the time it unfreezes you’ve scrolled so much that the screen is at the bottom of what you were trying to read, so you have to scroll back up and try to find where you left off. But it’s a never ending cycle, because when you scroll up the same thing happens, and you find yourself at the top of what you were trying to read. Anyways, that’s my rant for today. Bye!

-Sam